Lady-Immaterial

Inactive account I'll make a new one eventually and link to it later, but I don't and will probably not use this anymore. --- "I am not this body. I am in this body, and this is part of my incarnation and I honor it but that isn't who I am." -Ram Dass

It's hard to realize that things won't always end up like you want them too. I'm missing some old stuff but I guess that's what happens. And I'm worried about people but I can't make them let me know whats going on. I don't know whats broke anymore or how to fix things but I guess if someone doesn't need you then they don't need you.  and as sad as it might be at least you know they have someone they can talk to. But know I don't hate you, and I'll always think of you as a friend. and times get tough but I'll listen if you ever need me to, then maybe someday you'll be there for me too. I care about you guys I just hope you all know that.

I don't even know, Is something wrong with me? Because you make me feel like something MUST be wrong with me, even after I've tried doing things differently. And I've really really tried, and it's still like you don't give a shit anyways, so what, do I stop trying now? 'Cause I don't know what to do anymore. And I just want to blame you so I can stop hating myself so much, because I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S SO AWFUL ABOUT ME THAT I FEEL SO BAD, I just think that there must be something I don't understand. And I keep almost saying something and almost asking and then I stop and push it all back and why am I bothering, cause even if you said you care